fear, redux

Day 11 truth: today I am feeling inadequate. I am having a hard time focusing. I feel hopelessly behind in my reading for school, but I cannot seem to sit and read. The words swim before me on the page and I cannot tell you on page three what was on page two. I try to calm down, to focus, to relax, and I start again and it gets as bad. Then I find myself seeking diversions, things to do that aren't schoolwork, but that there is an urgent need to get done immediately. Urk. OK, going to make supper and try again. I have GOT to get caught up.